Tuesday, February 2, 2010


Surrender : transitive verb 1 a : to yield to the power, control, or possession of another upon compulsion or demand b : to give up completely or agree to forgo especially in favor of another
2 a : to give (oneself) up into the power of another especially as a prisoner b : to give (oneself) over to something (as an influence)

Some days you just want to throw your hands up and not in a joyful way, but in a way of frustration, in an act of defeat. The day can be going along smoothly and all it takes is one thing, a rock in the road to trip you up and take you off course, causing you to take your eyes off the horizon and your ultimate joy and you want to surrender. To give up, to say fine I’m done, have at it world, take all I’ve got.

But then you realize that there are some things you can’t do that with. Some instances where you can’t surrender or your stubborn mother’s heart just won’t let you. Because when it comes to your children is there really ever any surrender? Not as long as there is hope, love, fight and breath.

So you grit your teeth and hang in for the fight. Throwing up your hands and clinching them into fists at the rest of the world if you have to because the only act of Surrender when it comes to your children, in your heart and mind, is the Surrendering to the will of God. Nothing less will do.



pve design said...

let's hope for "peaceful" surrenders. Some days I like the idea of "throwing in the towel"- but I know that will never happen here. I am all talk.

Frau said...

I feel your pain....big breaths....in and out.....haaaa....better! Okay now on ward and have a better day! only wish it was that easy!

Debra said...

I remember these tough times-they do pass. Please do something nice for yourself while they are at school. It is very important to find small graces during the teen-trying-times!

Chudney Defreitas-Thomas said...

Keep going Kwana. Just get stubborn as Debra said it's ok to do something nice for yourself.

Purple Flowers said...

If you can find the time for yourself, try to go for a pedicure or facial or massage. The treatment will help relax you, and you'll come home refreshed. Maybe somethings won't feel or look so bad. Take Care.

Lafreya said...
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Deidra said...

WOw...So well said, my friend.

Someone once told me that it's those open hands of surrender that allow us to receive a blessing. Clenched fists don't let anything in. So, keep breathing, keep hoping, and keep those hands open. Mine are open and raised high for you today.

annechovie said...

Great point, Kwana. I don't have kids, but I can admire your mother's heart and the struggles that must go with the territory. Have a great week. xo


Amen sister!
I need this~ but any crisis can be a blessing as well, that I'm beginning to learn lately!

Wendy Toliver said...

I hear you, Kwana!

Did I mention my oldest son was suspended for a fight he instigated yesterday? Good times, sigh.

We can only do our best. :)

Kwana said...

Thanks for all your kind comments. We just have to hang in there one day at a time and keep up the good fight.

Wendy, oh no! What times we have to deal with. I'm so sorry. Chin up.

North of 25A said...

This is one of my favorites:
grant me the serenty
to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference

Tamstyles said...

you say it kwana! nothing else will do!

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